First off, I'll update you guys on my progress. I am feeling really good today. My energy level is slowly coming back. Although I've done really well in my recovery, I have noticed how easily I tire out and that my energy isn't where it used to be. This morning I am really full of energy, which is good, because I think we're going to plant our vegetable garden today!
The incision continues to look good, but I can feel it at all times. It kind of feels like I'm wearing a tight rubber band. It's definitely an odd feeling. I'm sure this will go away once the scar starts to relax a bit. Also, the seroma is nearly gone. I can barely see any fluid in the morning. By night when the swelling is way up it is a little more noticeable, but it looks like my body has done it's job and absorbed the fluid. Good job, body!
Now let's talk about compliments. Those of you that know me know that I have a really hard time taking compliments. It makes me really uncomfortable. Yesterday we went to the calling hours for Marc's aunt and I wore one of my new dresses. It is a flattering dress. But I was really uncomfortable with the amount of compliments I was getting. I feel like people must think I'm being falsely modest or something, but I'm really not. I just am not used to or comfortable with people saying how good I look, etc. Plus, I see all the flaws, so when someone says "You look amazing" I am thinking - "yeah, except for" and then I list stuff in my head.
Someone tell me to get over myself LOL
I am the same way with compliments. Makes me wonder if that's part of the reason I let myself get the way I was (94 lbs ago). Deep down, unconsciously- to thwart advances & compliments. I see so many flaws in myself. I see bad, not good. So you're not alone and I'm working on it too! I have a big event coming up, all people I haven't seen in 6 mo. - 1 yr and I'm bracing myself for the questions & comments. I want to hear it and I don't want to hear it at the same time.
ReplyDeleteI'm so weird! Glad to hear energy level is back, I want a TT when I'm done and maintained a 6months or so.
Get over it!! You are going to conintue to receive compliments and they are much deserved! You look fantastic and you have worked so hard... Don't be so modest! Enjoy every genuine word from all the people who are truly proud of you!
ReplyDeleteXOXO - Jessie
I was just telling Chuck last night that you weren't one to "blow your own horn" and that everyone is just truly happy for you. You need to just "get over it", smile and accept the compliments. You've earned them!
ReplyDeleteJust give the simple "Thank you." and a genuine smile. It's been a long road and a lot of work. You deserve complements. We all see flaws in ourselves that are invisible to others. You're going to have to get over it... the complements will continue to come!
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Thanks everyone - I'm trying to just be gracious and say thank you, but it's so uncomfortable! I am still a work in progress!
ReplyDeleteWe always see our flaws ALWAYS and in our own ways we look in the mirror and some days see the SAME bigger person in the mirror EVEN thouugh shes not there. ACCEPT the compliments when I lost I had know one that said ANYTHING except I looked the same {I don't live there anymore I now realize they were jealous} DEVA
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