I would like to say that in this journey of 2 years that I have developed a healthy relationship with food. But it's not true and it's never going to be true. I eat very healthy now. BUT, I could EASILY stuff several pieces of pizza, a pint of ice cream, and a bunch of french fries down my throat right now!
When I'm in a routine, things are easier. But since the surgery I haven't been in a routine. Add to that I'm not burning 500+ calories per day through exercise, and it makes things even more tough. I've been doing really well eating good things, but I worry about portion control.
I am absolutely terrified of gaining weight back. As of today, I am down 3.5 pounds from the day of surgery. That's not too bad. I am still swelling and there are lots of things going on in my body that makes it not want to lose any weight.
I know that realistically, even if I gain a couple pounds, I have the tools and techniques to take it off again. But I tend to be an all or nothing thinker. I believe that if I put on 2 pounds, that will lead to 50, and that thought is just so scary.
So I'll continue with the fruits and veggies and try to keep everything else in check. Wish me luck!