I feel like I’m in a groove right now in both a positive and a negative way. In some ways, having a predictable daily routine can be a drag on both mind and soul.
On the other hand, I feel in control and in a workable routine. Something has happened with my running. Almost 4 years after I ran my first mile outside I think that I have learned to pace myself and what a difference this has made. The daily running is so much easier now that I can and do slow down as needed.
The bad news? My pace is SO SLOW compared to last year. Last summer I was regularly running between 7:45 and 8:00 minute miles. Now? I’m running about 8:30 minute miles.
So this is what needs to happen. I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT. And, if I want to get faster, I need to do speedwork. So why is that a problem? Because I HATE speedwork and I LOVE food.
I still am a coward and haven’t stepped on the scale. I don’t think I have gained since my April 1 doctor’s appointment but I haven’t lost either.
Now, check out this pathetic-ness. The Heather Freeman Run to the Sun is May 9th. I have the choice of a half-marathon, a 10K or a 5K. The last 2 years I’ve run the half. And both years placed 2nd.
This year I will not be competitive so I’m thinking of just doing the 10K. I’m SUCH an asshole.
BUT, I haven’t been felt the depression and desperation that I felt this winter, so I want to hold on to that part of the routine.
I hope that this means I’m moving onwards and upwards and everything else will follow….