Accountability and sanity…

Accountability is so so important in this journey.  That's why I think it's important to tell at least one person you trust of your plans - preferably it is someone that wants to also take on a lifestyle change along with you.  If you can find someone to workout with - even if it's a nightly walk - that's awesome.  Or how about a friend who shakes their head when you stare longingly at the donuts in the morning meeting?

I've said before that I don't think I could have ever done this without Marc.  He kept and still keeps me honest by encouraging me to workout when I don't want to.  It also helps me to eat healthy dinners when we make the dinners and grocery shop together.  We help keep each other on track.

I also think technology is a fantastic way to keep yourself accountable.  Having a Fitbit or other wearable device telling you you've only made 3,000 steps when your goal is 10,000?  That encourages you to maybe park further from the store - or walk to the bathroom that’s urther from your office - or walk up and down the stairs a couple of times.  Every little bit helps!

Another tool – a big one - is the scale.  That is a constant accountability tool.  And for me, what worked my whole journey was climbing on the scale every day and seeing my progress or lack thereof.

But now?  I haven't been on the scale in like 2 weeks.  Because I know what I see will devastate me.  And I've been so depressed this winter and I feel like I'm just coming out of it and I don't want to destroy that by knowing a number.

It's so stupid, because knowing the number won't mean I'm any fatter then not knowing.  But somehow, mentally, I seem to think that it does.

So everyday I look at the scale knowing that I need accountability and I need to get my ass on there and see the numbers!  But I also want to relish feeling good, feeling SANE for the first time in way too long.  So am I right or wrong in just hiding from the truth?  I really don't know...