Monday, March 16, 2015

Accountability and sanity…


Accountability is so so important in this journey.  That's why I think it's important to tell at least one person you trust of your plans - preferably it is someone that wants to also take on a lifestyle change along with you.  If you can find someone to workout with - even if it's a nightly walk - that's awesome.  Or how about a friend who shakes their head when you stare longingly at the donuts in the morning meeting?

I've said before that I don't think I could have ever done this without Marc.  He kept and still keeps me honest by encouraging me to workout when I don't want to.  It also helps me to eat healthy dinners when we make the dinners and grocery shop together.  We help keep each other on track.

I also think technology is a fantastic way to keep yourself accountable.  Having a Fitbit or other wearable device telling you you've only made 3,000 steps when your goal is 10,000?  That encourages you to maybe park further from the store - or walk to the bathroom that’s urther from your office - or walk up and down the stairs a couple of times.  Every little bit helps!

Another tool – a big one - is the scale.  That is a constant accountability tool.  And for me, what worked my whole journey was climbing on the scale every day and seeing my progress or lack thereof.

But now?  I haven't been on the scale in like 2 weeks.  Because I know what I see will devastate me.  And I've been so depressed this winter and I feel like I'm just coming out of it and I don't want to destroy that by knowing a number.

It's so stupid, because knowing the number won't mean I'm any fatter then not knowing.  But somehow, mentally, I seem to think that it does.

So everyday I look at the scale knowing that I need accountability and I need to get my ass on there and see the numbers!  But I also want to relish feeling good, feeling SANE for the first time in way too long.  So am I right or wrong in just hiding from the truth?  I really don't know...

1 comment:

  1. Jen, you're not really hiding from anything. You know how you feel, how your clothes fit, and what you can accomplish physically. If the number just defeats you, don't beat yourself up looking at it every day. I do weigh every day, but I don't let the number ruin my outlook. Usually it spurs me on to do better. Everyone is different, and you need to do what works for you.