Who gives a shit?

The other day in my e-mail box I got an e-mail from Fitocracy.  It was an article written by a man named Jason Helmes.

It hit home so hard that by the time I reached the end of the article I was in tears.  Here it is and I hope you’ll take the time to read it:

http://www.fitocracy.com/knowledge/the-six-pack-of-unhappiness/

Did you read it?  If you didn’t take the time, the main gist of the article is that for your “everyday” man and woman, no one gives a shit about the tiny things.  And getting to some nearly unattainable goal won’t make you happy if you haven’t changed internally.

I am sure that most people in my life are incredibly happy and proud of me for losing the weight that I did.  And they must be glad that I am no longer a ticking time bomb.

But as far as giving a shit whether I weigh 119 or 125?  Nope.  Do they stare at me and think “Woo – she had a little more definition there one year ago – what happened?”  I’m guessing not.

And here’s the thing – I care for the wrong reasons.  Which doesn’t remove my fear.  There is no moment where the heavens open up and suddenly I get it and find peace.  But each little insight bring me closer to what my real goal is – happiness and self-acceptance.