That's what I'm telling myself today! I continue to feel so awesome. But then there's the part of me - which I know I get from my mother (Thanks Mom!) that is the pessimist. That part of me says that I can't continue to ride high without an inevitable crash!
After going to the work related get together and eating way too much, my weight spiked as I knew it would. But then I hopped on the scale yesterday and it was really low. So we hosted a family picnic for Marc's father's 95th birthday, and I again ate too much BUT I was successful in stopping before I really pigged out.
And, even better, everyone seemed to have a wonderful time at the party. It was relaxed and everyone got to sit down and chat and catch up.
Then, even after being exhausted from the day, I got a second burst of energy. My mother went down south to visit my Aunt Karla last month and she had sent back some clothes - really nice ones - for me. (Thanks so much Karla <3 ) I went through my closet to make room for the new clothes and pulled out some that I just know I'm never going to wear and put them in a bag to bring to a friend from work and got the closet all cleaned up. Where the heck did that energy come from?
Still I was worried about running this morning, because usually my body is not enthused about a long run after eating way too much. AND I was on my feet all day and I am still nursing my Achilles tendinitis which is better but not great.
I was a bit timid starting my run. I have the half marathon coming up and really wanted to hit 13 miles today, but was unsure what my body would think about that plan. It ended up I felt GREAT! I was listening to a Stephen King audio book and both my body and mind felt great. It was windy, but otherwise perfect running weather - around 70 degrees and low humidity. I easily ran 14 miles and could have kept going, but decided not to push it.
After lunch Marc and I even laid in the hammock for a while. Yes, I could have been doing something more productive, but there is value in rest, right?
I am telling myself that this IS possible. I can be someone who maintains their weight loss and feels good and in control of their lives. So I am challenging myself to just enjoy this ride and to stop myself from thinking that the other shoe is about to drop!!!
I have a wish for everyone out there who is reading this. I WISH that everyone out there could feel as good as I have for the last couple of weeks. That feeling can be achieved!! I hope you are striving for it and believing!
I too was born to a pessimist HARD to kick but maybe a good thing too?!?! I too am riding the wave and trying to stay up on it and lovin it!
ReplyDeleteOops Gayle
ReplyDeleteI hate to nitpick, but I don't believe that I am a pessimist but rather a realist. If I was indeed a pessimist I would be thinking to myself that you will never keep the weight off. Realistically, I am sure that you will maintain a healthy weight because you worked WAY too hard to lose what would have been insurmountable to most people without medical intervention in the first place. I love you anyway even if you do think that you inherited pessimism from me.
ReplyDeleteOh come on and own your pessimism, Mom!! I would have rather gotten your blue eyes, but all in all it could have been worse ;))
DeleteI appreciate your faith in me even when I don't have it in myself!
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ReplyDeleteI have maintained a 85 pound weight loss for a whopping month after taking a year and a half to lose it.
I fear relapse and am unsure about my diet and activity... I can't decide if I should lose more or stay where I'm at. BUT I am trying to enjoy my life and my body. Thanks for the reminder to enjoy the moment. It is a good moment.
CONGRATS on your weight loss! Deciding where to stop and how to maintain is definitely the most challenging part of this journey IMO!!
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