I ran across this quote yesterday and it really made me think. When I was obese was my desire to be obese? No way. But on the other hand, I didn't really do anything meaningful to make a change. So in a way, I guess that yes, it was that I wanted to stay the same. In fact, as I think about it now, if I'm really being honest with myself, my desire would be to go back to old habits. I would like to be able to eat a lot more then I do. I don't think that I have a deep down psychological problem, I just reaaaalllly like the taste of food! So I would like to go back to having ice cream and cookies for dessert and have large slices of fresh italian bread slathered in butter. But my desire to be thin and healthy outweighs (no pun intended) that desire.
I remember watching some TV show a few years ago and there was a doctor on talking about the obesity problem in the US and there was some new diet drug on the market. The doctor said "Quite frankly I'm pessimistic that we are ever going to find a pill that lets people sit on the couch all day, eat bon-bons and lose weight. But this is what the American people want, so researchers are going to keep looking for that solution."
I also don't think that's going to happen. Weight loss is hard and requires an incredible amount of sacrifice and commitment. For me, it finally became that my desire not to be obese became greater then my desire to continue the path that was what I was used to. But there are still days that I feel like giving up. Right now, no matter what I am doing, my body is stuck at 120 pounds. Each day this week that I've stepped on the scale I've been frustrated and discouraged.
Where is your desire level right now?
In other news tomorrow is my 3rd 10K and I'm looking forward to running it. And last night my sister-in-law Rose stopped and gave me a bunch of clothes that my niece Sarah no longer wants. I love shopping, but I also like getting hand me downs. As I was putting on the outfits I still can't believe that I am the same size as her. Sarah has always been so thin and the reality that I can fit into her clothes?
In fact, I'm wearing one of the dresses that she gave me today:
What do you think?