Sunday, January 1, 2017

Rumors of my demise….

I don’t know how many people will see this post – after all, it’s been a long time since I’ve posted anything and probably most people – who even cared to check – have given up.

I gave up.  Completely.

I lost any and all hope.  It was hit after hit after hit in 2016, and it seemed like I could never get my feet under me. 

For those of you who know me, I love Christmas.  And this year, I was in such a deep, dark depression that I didn’t decorate.  No tree, no lights, no nothing.  Instead I curled up on the couch and cried while Marc stood there baffled and helpless wondering what the hell was wrong with me.

And that’s just it – most of the drama was entirely in my own head.  But that being a FACT and even KNOWING how ridiculous it was didn’t make it go away.

I’d like to tell you that things are better, and that I have a ton of hope for the New Year.  But I also don’t want to blow smoke up anyone’s ass. 

I sit here having gained a lot of weight and I don’t have any real sense that I can get it together.  But obviously if I’m taking the time to write this I haven’t completely abandoned hope that 2017 can and will be better. 

One bright spot?  For those of you who don’t also look at my Facebook page – I have news!

A new puppy!




He is a sweet, mischievous, reverse brindle Boxer that we brought home on 12/23 at 8 weeks old.  He is helping to heal my heart and soul….

So am I back?  No promises… but I hope I am back in many ways…


  1. Hi I just wanted to say that I wondered what happened to you. I have been reading your blog for awhile but I don't comment very often. I struggle with my weight too and finding any motivation to do anything about it. I look at each new year as hopeful and even if I can't figure out anything but maintaining where I am is ok for me. Hang in there and I hope your new dog brings you joy.

  2. You will get it back. You have pushed yourself hard for soooo long.....its bound to push back.
    Like you said it's a good sign you are posting YOU have not given up.
    I am so happy about your new puppy,they DO help heal a broken heart.
    Thinking of you Jen!
    A better year ahead!

  3. Yep, I was concerned about your demise. Good to see you're still kicking. And that puppy! Squeeeeee!! There cannot be anything better to heal a heart that a darling puppy!
    Take a deep breath and face 2017 head on. As your background says, it's a fresh new year!